Im waiting

These last few days I have been very vulnerable. I feel like I am just waiting to see 

where life is going to lead me after I graduate. 

I hope that I never miss out on life, it really is a beautiful thing. 

There are so many things that I want out of life it is overwhelming at times. 

I am going to try to take this journey one day at a time enjoying the people and places I am around.

I fell asleep to this song playing on pandora and I woke up to it

which seems strange to me because it is exactly how I feel when I feel vulnerable.

-Nicole.Joyce

Im begging you don't let me go

Feels like I'm running out of soul
Why do people feel the need to discourage you?


Maybe it's not them, maybe it is me. Maybe they are just trying to help me and I am taking it negatively. Maybe I really won't enjoy leaving what has become home to me, but then again maybe it is what I need to feel alive again.

I'm very frustrated today which is strange since I took a personal day which consisted of me sleeping in till 11, going to lunch with a cute boy, filling out NCAA Clearing house form, and going to work. I don't want it to seem like I am always this downer because I don't believe that is what I am at all. Right now I am just at a huge fork and I don't know which way to go. 

So I will wait for the Tomorrow that leads me to where I am going and

 I will believe that everything that happens is meant to be. 

-Nicole.Joyce

Trying to take the good with the bad

Ill Start off with the good

Hawaii was SOOOOO much fun

First day in paradise

Pearl Harbor what a site to see

Our friends from Americas Got Talent

I love these girls more than they know

Representing Jimmy Buffett 

Snorkeling was so fun!

What a way to spend spring break

"The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that

 they can grow separately without growing apart."

I feel so amazing that I have got to spend this last decade in Moscow surrounded by all sorts of wonderful people who over the years shaped me into the woman I am today. However with all of these amazing things that surround me I feel consumed in issues that are almost overwhelming. Trust me when I say that I really truly try to look at the glass half full but sometimes I feel as though life keeps knocking the glass over again, and again, and again and right now it feels empty. 

the worst part is

However with this being said Im going to try to

Have a goodnight and sweet dreams

-Nicole Joyce

It's been the longest winter without you

I know that in life the ones we love are the ones that have the ability to hurt us the most. However, I truly believe that the reason we feel hurt is because we have these huge unrealistic expectations. I also feel like most of the time when people hurts us it isn't intentional; nonetheless being human every single one of us takes it personally. I am starting to realize that everyone is just trying to be happy. Lastly, I know that when others hurt you the odds are they are probably hurting themselves, so go easy on those you love and find it inside of you to forgive them. 

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference."

-Nicole. Joyce

I am so glad to have you back.