Im waiting

These last few days I have been very vulnerable. I feel like I am just waiting to see 

where life is going to lead me after I graduate. 

I hope that I never miss out on life, it really is a beautiful thing. 

There are so many things that I want out of life it is overwhelming at times. 

I am going to try to take this journey one day at a time enjoying the people and places I am around.

I fell asleep to this song playing on pandora and I woke up to it

which seems strange to me because it is exactly how I feel when I feel vulnerable.

-Nicole.Joyce

Im begging you don't let me go

Feels like I'm running out of soul
Why do people feel the need to discourage you?


Maybe it's not them, maybe it is me. Maybe they are just trying to help me and I am taking it negatively. Maybe I really won't enjoy leaving what has become home to me, but then again maybe it is what I need to feel alive again.

I'm very frustrated today which is strange since I took a personal day which consisted of me sleeping in till 11, going to lunch with a cute boy, filling out NCAA Clearing house form, and going to work. I don't want it to seem like I am always this downer because I don't believe that is what I am at all. Right now I am just at a huge fork and I don't know which way to go. 

So I will wait for the Tomorrow that leads me to where I am going and

 I will believe that everything that happens is meant to be. 

-Nicole.Joyce

Trying to take the good with the bad

Ill Start off with the good

Hawaii was SOOOOO much fun

First day in paradise

Pearl Harbor what a site to see

Our friends from Americas Got Talent

I love these girls more than they know

Representing Jimmy Buffett 

Snorkeling was so fun!

What a way to spend spring break

"The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that

 they can grow separately without growing apart."

I feel so amazing that I have got to spend this last decade in Moscow surrounded by all sorts of wonderful people who over the years shaped me into the woman I am today. However with all of these amazing things that surround me I feel consumed in issues that are almost overwhelming. Trust me when I say that I really truly try to look at the glass half full but sometimes I feel as though life keeps knocking the glass over again, and again, and again and right now it feels empty. 

the worst part is

However with this being said Im going to try to

Have a goodnight and sweet dreams

-Nicole Joyce

It's been the longest winter without you

I know that in life the ones we love are the ones that have the ability to hurt us the most. However, I truly believe that the reason we feel hurt is because we have these huge unrealistic expectations. I also feel like most of the time when people hurts us it isn't intentional; nonetheless being human every single one of us takes it personally. I am starting to realize that everyone is just trying to be happy. Lastly, I know that when others hurt you the odds are they are probably hurting themselves, so go easy on those you love and find it inside of you to forgive them. 

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference."

-Nicole. Joyce

I am so glad to have you back.

Monday Blues

I think if we don't have a snow day tomorrow I will forever give up on school being cancelled. It has been snowing nonstop since two and my backyard looks as though it is a cloud. I have this sudden urge to jump into it but I know that would just result in me being grumpy, cold, and in need of a shower to warm up.

Okay...Maybe not this much snow but still.

I keep putting off homework then when I start to think "Maybe I should do my homework" I look outside and decide not to because it is going to be a snow day. This is me being very hopeful, embrace it. But this time more so than last few times I have blogged I really truly feel like this isn't something that is so far fetched. 

    The Only good things about snow is the fact that there could be no school besides that this weather gets me down however Ten days until we leave for Hawaii!!!!! :)

-Nicole. Joyce

Lazy Days

Im already done with work for the day and it is only 12:30! I don't really know what to do with the rest of my day because I was going to go visit my dad in Lewiston however it is way to snowy outside to do that. On days like this I feel as though I should put a productivity list together so I get things accomplished. 

my list today is

Go to Sharies with Brittany

Clean my room

Read my book

Go workout at Anytime

Do my homework

Watch The Secret Life of the American Teenager

On another note only ELEVEN more days till me, Brittany, Hayley, Michelle, Lindsay, Taylor, and Angie are in a plane heading to Hawaii! I am so excited for this we are going to go to go snorkeling, parasailing, visit Pearl Harbor, indulge in delicious foods, and the rest of the time we are going to be beach bums. 

We will be a few blocks from this beach 

Have a good sunday and pray for a snowday! 

-Nicole. Joyce

Outdated

Today I took the day off from school for personal reasons. I slept literally all day might I add it felt amazing and well needed. 

__________________________________________________________

So I know that this game was forever ago but I found this picture of my grandpa who is a die hard Bears fan and my uncle who loves loves loves Greenbay. Me, I have always been a Bears fan which lead me to be so mad that I didn't even watch the first half of the Superbowl because I was sleeping at Taylor Charles house. Nonetheless I watched the end because I had to go to work and lets be honest what else is there to do at work besides watch T.V.

I just love this picture. :)
_____________________________________________________________________

When I made my first blog post I forgot to add my furry creatures so here is the rest of my family. 

The little boy on the left is Lincoln not one of my animals.
The dog is luke.

Hogan and Me!

....and is the lovely Issy.


-Nicole.Joyce

P.s: Im hoping for a snow day which I think might be possible if the wind picks up. We are living in a winter wonderland not a storm advisory. 

This little guy was down town 

Long Weekends

This has been such a lovely four day weekend. I was thinking today while I was making my way down to my daddy's house what I have accomplished and I couldn't think of anything; well besides the 4.5 hours of work I put in at Wingers. That is when I decided that I really do think I could be one of those people who sits around at home and does nothing and is very content with it. The only way I believe I could manage to do this is to be a stay at home mom which would mean I would have to have kids which then leads me back to reality; School and work after that thought process those two don't look that bad, for now. In between homework and work I have managed to finish season one of The Secret Life of the American Teenager. I know you're probably thinking that show is full of awful acting, unless your Brittany or Lindsay and then you are thinking "GO ON TO SEASON TWO!" which is what I will be doing tonight, I just love it. 

Watching My Show leads to....

Me being happy as can be. :)

Also I saw a beautiful sight I want to share

I just love sunsets and this one made me want summer so much more.

-Nicole.Joyce

My Awfully Beautiful Life

Nicole Joyce Tatham

I have finally caved and decided to get a blog. Many would say it is because tons of my friends blog and that would be correct. They make it look like it is the funnest thing in the world and I am hoping they are right. I have this odd feeling that my blog will be full of cliche quotes, songs that display how I am feeling, and photos stolen off of sites such as "photobucket".

These are some of those people who have changed my life. 

The two men in my life (My grandpa and daddy)

My Momma

My Sister

Hayley, Michelle, Brittany, Lindsay
 (Hawaii Group minus Taylor)

Taylor
(She can go to Hawaii too!)

Brookie

My spring team

Life is what we make it and I want mine to be full of precious memories and wonderful people. I have created a great start because I have fantastic friends and a beautiful family that I wouldn't trade for anything, ever.

This concludes my first blog, although it was not as fun and as witty as my friend's blogs it is me. I will do my best to try and make the ones following more intriguing. 

-Nicole.Joyce